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Writer's pictureEmanuel Bajra

Coin Tosser (Tight-Version)





2085

Shoreditch, London

 

Neon haze drips down glass towers stop Databator hums electric dreams stop NETs pulse through veins stop WS flickers manic data streams stop

 

Apparition of fortune gods worshipped endlessly stop Scheme of gains embarrassing stop Downturn bad took 5% stop Huge deal? Not really stop

 

Mate Darryl expo-trader says depress pricing levels reprice fear pull NETs to bulwark stop Digital Central Bank swallows virtual mind-money stop Fucking crazy right?

 

WS crap all day stop Not worth leaving Databator stop Grand illusion prone virtual reality stop What's the point of Airpadding? stop Chucked it in today stop

 

This morning greatest ever stop Could rule world repeatedly stop Trying to find sugar remembered two weeks ago total mess stop High on expectations normality enemy stop

 

NETs growing barrage system flooded had to reprint whole rig stop Mate Angie says once in lifetime occurrence stop Never happened right? stop Had to redo whole thing stop

 

What's the point? stop Wondered for days stop Remove central bank power on money stop Entire plan for crypto stop NETs came along thought we were free stop

 

Communicate wishes become rich doing what we want stop Illusion lived with me a while stop Soon realized set lower expectations find something fun stop

 

Databator expunges realness makes you its platform stop Despatched CALLT to virtual-beyond stop Few responded stop Nothing on WS or SIDGNET stream stop

 

Waited and waited no avail stop Nothing happening stop Looked out of Databator felt normal stop Tea slurped quickly skies darkened stop No signs of life from SIDGNET stop

 

Waited long enough bored dizzy like hangover no reason stop SIDGNET sends tiny beep stop AWARED onto CALLT stop Harris said Hi stop

 

Did you see Farry Link announcement? stop No don't know what you're talking about stop He's gone over cliff? stop What do you mean? stop

 

Abandoned us gone over VIRAL stop Didn't switch off Databator? stop No went over Rubicon with data stop Didn't want to be here with us stop

 

Must burn down total shit stop All over CONSCSNET-CNET stop Don't understand stop Still confused unproductive not clever stop

 

Sends CNET feed enters bloodstream like needle in vein stop See everything stop Hear commotion people tearing each other to get into zone stop

 

Beyond noise big bangs stellar regions blast veins off stop Noise inhumanely bangy try to maneuver around stock stop Latching stream to stream got stuck on woman's roller stop

 

Had dog so curious didn't want to look stop Wanted to continue haystack little needle purposelessly not admiring smooch of life stop

 

Immigrants of cosmos meet me stop Group of specimens not moved by laggard of time-space stop Not bound to anything stop

 

Asked super consciously if one of them or like them or part of bigger uptake stop Not stop All I was human advanced one collates information for benefit of nothing stop

 

Only susceptible to change bigger mass of evolution stop Try to ignore un-ignorables slimy creatures of slippery slope stop Wouldn't let go see opportunity to meet more from realm stop

 

Surprised how detached rest of humanity in sphere stop Spent over hour in net not met single fellow human stop Sad made me think trial not there forever stop

 

Somehow encounter journey Farry Link would take to enhance travails to in-depth source stop One hour became two then three and rest stop

 

Everything else static motion unique experiences minuscule shape stop Could see things but not define phenomena stop Switched on infolp stop

 

Emerging news Farry Link emasculates through wormhole energy-busting proportions uplifts onto SA stop Source Alpha endless hose-like unit goes into wormhole-type energy sucking mega-unit stop

 

Where all dead end up stop No access given to immortals yet stop Will find out when time arrives stop Wanted to give chase stop

 

Couldn't keep up stamina jeez stop Wanted to though stop Changed mind last minute stop What's point chasing man not interested in being with living? stop

 

Wandered few more minutes stop Beyondira vast man vast cool scary stop Don't know what going to do when older need to cross over stop

 

Used to call that "Death" stop Call it mushrooming into realm endless pit of silences stop Petulance stuff stop

 

Reminded self to chase freaking story need head back to room meditate recline into chair with snack stop Make popcorn indulge in permanency stop

 

Corridor to flat wide stop Normally fit carpter stop Time when whole neighbourhood stuck here stop Everybody parking carpters stop Could fit more stop

 

May not bring children or older adults in block stop High levels Octaginorenomensis stop Thick air fills lungs throws into trance experience stop Known as Oxis stop

 

Free to release much Oxis as want stop Only thing need do afterwards suck up stuff not leave traces stop This afternoon going to fire it all up stop

 

Invited Netcratz to throw party of sickos stop Think going to be humid pretty devil-like feel stop Prone to exaggerate stop Last time threw havoc got fined stop

 

Disconnected local CNET stop So much shit going on lost control of everything stop Blame Thill mate gone viral chasing Harry Fink stop

 

Others made lot of crumbs sucked up life's juice now embellishing never-ending interspace excursion stop Thill was laugh stop

 

Remember moment standing by edge labyrinthine entrance far end corridor stop Tempting to tell him something needed to know stop

 

Going to move on from Trough heckle into new entity depend on system for bit stop Getting unbearable stop Never had chance to tell him stop

 

Would have told me off stop Know that for fact stop Told him tell something important following week meet for proper catch-up stop

 

Went viral gutted now didn't have time opportunity to tell what felt like wanted to do stop Regrettable optimistic somehow have clue what going to tell him stop

 

Reminisced other day about possibilities reversing viralism stop Virallity Viral processes stop Trance process where could turn back time stop

 

Discussed with Twang and Hannah two supporters whose advice not to go there stop No need compensate past losses involving newer types losses stop

 

What thought! stop Gave up on idea stop Now seem obsessed with this stop So much so keep being penalized just overuse cnet stop

 

Don't like it stop Worst thing Digicouncil done was autonomise entire process stop Flagrantly overused lot of resource stop

 

Kept emptying crumbs so quickly one day didn't have enough to latch into net stop Hard stop Thought about viral too scared stop

 

Not have access see progress stop Withdrew from overuse received lot of warning stop Stopped misbehaving moved on stop

 

Still find spare days come remarkably close to over-limit stop Given permission go near not over it stop Bunch people attending tonight quite interesting lot stop

 

Gathered amongst them Primarosa stop Hybrid human part dog rest fish skinned woman stop Supposed to be beautiful very personable stop

 

Conducts herself properly if in mood does multi-sex offers for over ten at once stop Never had chance immerse in such fun experience stop

 

Dell coming along then Antropeda stop Dead person turned himself into permanent hologramic ball of sphere stop Had lot of body sensitivities insecurities stop

 

Day-S former space guard with three brains adopted stop One from father other from sister own split between mother and himself stop

 

Rest are normals from neighbourhood finding enough time get out enjoy time with semi-physical world stop Semi-physical huh? stop Real joke really stop

 

Sometimes find ridiculously hard distinguish between normative accepted term of reference for presence past and more stop

 

Totally Immersed in party's anticipation stop Agreed with rest of crew cnet such helpful tool network with enties stop Made quick list who will be there who would not be stop

 

Jeez lot of ground cover stop Immersing myself in it not one to do stop Receive quick entries in brain stop Antropeda confirmed Primarosa too Day-S tick stop

 

Trangyk Human-eating cannibal comes on leash always guarded by Vella slave tick stop Bringo Floating barrager of insects with baby heads each personifying up-and-coming famous person tick stop

 

Rest are followers of those stop Overall brain accepts thirty-three enties stop Excitement cannot describe how feel right now stop

 

Received permission download them all into foyer stop Happy at least party will go on can entertain as many as possible stop

 

Back of mind still think about loss many crumbs corporation committed stop Trying keep that well past me stop Want focus on party stop

 

Andropeda first one in stop No knocking say to him stop No need to know you are here he says stop Both laugh stop

 

Awkward give him hug still on hologram mode stop Can't you just turn yourself into real self? stop Laugh at him stop

 

Doesn't respond very keen grab himself drink stop Offer him bar corner stop Remember this communal foyer remind him stop

 

For every drink finished must replace at once must be tangelonomic stop He laughs continues drinking uninterruptedly stop

 

Say to him calm down take it easy stop Just because laid person dead person buried hurriedly in graveyard doesn't mean all excitement of lifetime needs to spend on one day stop

 

He laughs again hologram appearance gives all don't need to see stop Can see liquid pouring draining away through guts into intestines sits in huge pocket double size twenty stone man stop

 

You're thirsty stop Here some more stop Say to him stop Offer him Nasty Crown stop Bottle spirits made from ashes interstellar travel collections from Constable Remit stop

 

First human hero made past initial black hole's walls stop You know what this is? stop Ask him stop No not really smells earthly not sure about it stop

 

Laugh stop It's unearthly otherworldly derives from furthest of father any living moving breathing entie has gone stop He continues laugh stop

 

Bet Day-S will love it he says stop As continue to banter laugh Dell steps in stop No knocking say to him give proper hug stop

 

Thank you for coming so quick stop Where are others he asks? stop Don't know stop Have Andropede here stop Just nipped at balcony upstairs stop

 

He disappeared that quickly stop Dell says stop Know stop Must be desperate to access thick air stop Both laugh before Dell adding fucking earthlings stop

 

Laugh add earththings you mean gesture with two fingers up stop Both laugh within minutes everybody in stop Foyer filled quickly waste no time offer welcome stop

 

Ask each one whether comfortable just carry on party by being in present stop Apart from Dell-S everybody else fine stop

 

Andropede says would like breathe more air doesn't gets lot of it where he is stop Laugh but everybody else stare as if to say this not funny stop

 

Decide ignore rest invite everybody up steps onto balcony stop Andropede reluctant in end gives in stop

 

Bulky lot abandon all of us roam balcony some with drinks some others without any drinks but with lot of stamina to have fun stop

 

Feel happy at last stop Try ignore overcast skies stop They not bothered stop All want do just feel heat of moment stop

 

You know Dell-S says as approaches me stop Always thought you would be like introverted nerd stop Laugh then whisked away by Dell and Primarosa stop

 

Trangyk because of physical constraints come near me unsure what wants to say stop Got drunk so quickly say and gives smile stop

 

All can see steel teeth see-through eyes pin infrared hole in heart stop Don't know why invited him stop This entie dangerous creature stop

 

Guess feeling want to be associated with something stop Want spend time with unacceptables deplorable living ones stop

 

One fan of crowd approaches offers to reconnect stop Say no thank you stop Not interested but kind pretty face switched on at once so thought give chance stop

 

Reconnected at once not before cornered self by entrance cabin left glass drink on side stop Her world calmer stop Shocked stop

 

At once taken aback trying look her in eyes stop That first moment entering her connection lost self to lot of painless journeys stop

 

She rides faster than ever could stop Ask her calm down slightly concentrate on knowing each other better stop She doesn't budge stop

 

No Suggestions Available with thought of either stopping or making sure self-fulfilled obstacle sends us to canyon and beyond stop Got frightened stop

 

At once she stops before switching em off tells me not fit to hold parties not so sure could withstand thought of having another party be successful stop

 

'Well enties like me will never turn up need to know if lose us then will lose quite many people going to ensure they don't come to your party honey!' stop

 

By that moment not sure will reconnect with anybody else experience left with bit of sour grapes' moment stop Wanted reconnect with other enties stop

 

Now just want see if can have fun with rest of crew stop Did not want meddle with rest of crew on board stop Was little more delicate at what needed to withstand stop

 

See what was needed from me to immerse myself with rest of lot stop Wanted speak to Trangyk Vella though would not allow approach anywhere near it stop

 

Afraid you cannot just get close to him stop Let him finish drink stop He busy can't you see! stop Vella said while whisking away from Trangyk stop

 

Just want ask him how doing that all stop It my party need react with guests stop Said to her stop There no need panic stop

 

Deserve more than just some kind rejection coming from guests stop Insist again on approaching Trangyk stop Vella still one push away make feel needed some kind protection stop

 

Some sort defence from unpredictable Trangyk stop What she does not realize in framework of defending self have lot at disposal to defend keep away from rest of harmful lot surrounded self with stop

 

What she does not realize can just pull plug off entire party then encourage everybody move out clear out whole shit stop

 

After few hours drinking verbal masturbations sometimes up and down infinite physical dancing ritualistic congregations called it quits stop

 

After gone through hell high water ensure everybody find some kind synergy with each other later realized actually needed some kind re-resurrection stop

 

Just so can keep feet in ground can control framework as it my invitation my intent have them round just so can feel little just like our past stop

 

Just like our coagulated murky descendants tales of exquisite re-formatting of lives replenished with full flavor of lore tradition custom fairy tales stop

 

Tried stop Cannot see any sense of ending being entered these enties brains well some of them have none while some others have way too much stop

 

This causing lot of unhappiness discontent even amongst hybrid lot stop Sat back for moment while holding glass of wine feeling rarest specimen standing on two legs both arms with brain heart lungs to breathe stop

 

That this not working stop What has happened to ones used to live with? stop How possible have come to this point? stop Nothing satisfactory pleasurable to tilt stop

 

Nothing creates anything out of ashes of past stop By doing this believed that stop Told ourselves some other entities were decision-makers of our fate stop

 

What were building utterly not just incompatible with our genesis but also with our sense of future trajectory stop Did not think hard of our emotions landing of new thoughts stop

 

Thought hard on our mind delivered change that was going to be long lasting but with beautiful all-encompassing finish line stop That finish line was elixir of our own pleasure determination stop

 

That finish line was our undoing here I am left here by myself surrounded by visible streams waves of multi colored energy fields full of entities that only twenty years ago never existed or sustained any life at all stop

 

Here I am observer mortal sot with deep sense of duty to our kind to our revelation stop Permanence of which will not consume more than it needs to stop

 

Content with this but what not in content with is sense of mongrel thoughts of change stop Never wanted to change stop Family particularly sisters wanted change wanted to-be feel different stop

 

All wanted was stick to guns enter long endeavor of strive accumulated sense of life's coagulated view distorted version of us me stop They won because decisive in foresight stop

 

Failed because wanted to be person I am today stop Mean this not some kind testimony of trials stop This something born with has not been that difficult to work out why finish line maneuvering worked for me stop

 

There no surprise feel contemplated while others feel deep sense of contrast has been drawn up stop But is this some kind disbursement of duties responsibilities or is this just karma at highest stage of human evolution? stop

 

Mean can you imagine Peculiarity of thought surprise of shocking proportions will be drawn in if were to capitalize in moment if mum dad would walk in at this moment see contention? stop

 

Huh don't know what mortals of them would say do stop Know one thing for sure though that will conduct soul-searching of past doing that will be good at it stop

 

No one would understand stigma of descent stop Will feel guilty done for stop Will resuscitate past feel that have future somehow or that future set upon by higher norms of society by fantastical sense of history made when things at peace stop

 

When thought about this little earlier few days before never understood that would make so much sense to parents stop Sense that reality could just be wiped up likes of Trangyk Vella Primarosa all others would just reappear in our lives stop

 

That so much would go on fascination would never stop stop If were to be in parents' shoes probably highly likely that would have been doing same shit every time there opportunity stop

 

Mean you limited in time scope to see world differently stop Would rather see to it via intransigencies of life pre-death stop You know that absurd idea of constant reordering of stale unliveable stop.

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